Australian Dream.

The Roses Have Faded.

I am more and more confused today.
Yes, the faded roses are in the dustbin. I thought it was like throwing our love away with them. I hated the idea but it was necessary you having found the right person with Clare, I had to come out of the game.
It hurt me after all that we shared together for months, happy together chatting.
Well, let put some sense into my brain: it had to happen and it did.
I hated you for not thanking me for the Xmas present.
Denise and Dan both did.
I said to myself you did not care. I suffered a lot.
Yesterday, I had the feeling I got to phone you. What a good idea I had !
First of all, you never got the parcel. Gosh, are you doomed or is it me when I want to give you something ?
I hope you will get it some other day and I am curious to know what you will do with the bracelet. Wear it or not ? This would be full of meaning.
Clare has given up her job in Tennant Creelk and is moving further away to Queensland.
What a pity ! I said I was sorry for you as you seemed to have found the right person.
You replied there are some other right persons around.
Did you mean me ? I guess so.
In fact, you played again with my feelings. Did you want to know my reaction ?
Nobody believed in that new love story of yours, not even Pierre.
I was the only one as usual to be fooled by you.
When connected later on you played "Love Generation" thanking Bob Sinclar for that song.
Yes, you wanted to tell once you still like it though playing it very often and you said: "I still love HER". What a lapsus ! Steve was with you at Bo's on that day.
Your voice was cheerful, but when I emailed you I was sorry for you, distances not helping things and reminding you of impossible love and unpredictable one, it became so sullen at once.
You ignored my requests and left all of a sudden not spending the usual hour with your listeners.
You turned the screen to me to show the computer was off.
I was meaning Clare but I think you were thinking of the both of us. You got the irony right.
A little revenge on my part.
Still, I was waiting for Jesse's first mail after you left Bo's.
I told him all about you and he replied you are doing your best avoiding me. That pleased him a lot, but he became distant not ready to answer as quickly as usual.
I guess, I bored him talking about you again.
He did not send me messages during the first half of the soccer match.
I rushed to the chocolate box which, I know, was a very bad idea !!!
Later on he told me again he desires so badly and he won't tell others about us for he wants to keep me all to himself.
He hurried wishing me a good night, but came back again when I told him the match was not over yet.
He wants me to be with him in my dreams as I am in his.
He speaks less of sex and I like it better this way.
I still feel the spell on me.
Well, Jesse is a man who is in need of affection and sex.
You are a boy, shy about sex, selfish and as a good Scorpio not allowing people to read too much into your mind. Keep all secret from me, Marty. I am tired of guessing.
The game is not over then. I don't know who is going to win in the end.
After all distances don't make things easy for you, for Jesse and for me !!!