Spoilt relationships.

I am not sure I will be back to Australia as soon as I wished. I am at a loss by now.
Mixed feelings have taken the place of my strong determination.
In fact I don't know what to do.
I spent these last two years living in a dream.
Marty and the Bojangles mastered my life and my everyday preoccupations. But, now, what am I going to do ? I guess I have lost a friend and someone even said Marty never was a friend.
Hard to believe though.
It is true I have been puzzled for months by the change that occured in his behavior last April.
He has stopped calling my name since then and worse, hung up each time I tried to have him on the phone. I just wanted to know if he had got the two last parcels I had sent him, not in my mind wanting to bother him with more.
I still don't know the fate of these two, but a letter with an article on the Aussie rugby team in my place during the last World Cup was returned to me, not at this address. Well I redirected it to his personal address, just to see whether he had got it and refused to take it, or if he had never had been given that one.
Amazingly he seemed to try to keep in touch though, even lately, playing my songs as he got the requests. He even mentioned on the mike a few sports events I was talking about on sending my requests. I had in mind and told him I would carry on doing as if all was as previous and would be satisfied by it.
But as I was expressing my doubts about his having got the letter, his boss sent me an e-mail saying it was clear Marty didn't want to build up a friendship as I had done with Dan.
She wants to protect her employees from any form of harassment. It was hard for me to read all that.
Marty was the one who paid much attention to me even before I was back in Australia for the second time. He has a strange attitude staying away from town as I was there for a fortnight. He had doubts about what Iwas expecting from him, just a DJ doing his job. Lol ! I was not expecting anything, just eager to meet someone who had been so nice and so caring.
Back home he was the one who started the e-mailing telling me so much about his private life.
We enjoyed some wonderful moments together watching the sports events of the time.
Everyday brought us closer and I let him know about some painful experiences I had in my past, and my present worries.
Each time I was feeling depressed I knew I could rush to him. He never let me down at that time.
The e-mailing went to an end due to his boss, as he said to me and I believed him. Dan said they were not allowed to use the computer at work for personal matters. Easy to understand.
Was it just that he was pulling out of the relationship with me ? I was left wondering, especially when he said to me on the phone he had got a new girlfriend. It was of no consequence for me though.
We resumed as we used to do before my visit to his place. It was hard at first for I was still expectine an e-mail from him as before, but slowly I took the habit again of listening carefully to what he said, looking for the tleast hint concerning me. And I must say I was much cared of with songs.
I acted silly though thinking I has found someone in LA who could take Marty's place. I was so naive. I met on the web a cheater, an ex-gangster, someone to be avoided by any means. I rushed back to my first shelter, but by then things changed all of a sudden. Why ?
I thought of the influence of a new girlfriend, of his brother's now living by him, but not of the boss.
What I learnt last week is that the boss had her part behind the scene.
May be Marty realized he had gone too far and backed from this relationship of two years. He may just want to secure his job and that doesn't mean he is not in the same mood as previous. It is my husband's opinion. The latter even mentioned an act of jealousy. Hard to believe, but why not ?
The boss said she reads all that I write while sending my requests. I just can't let my thoughts out as before.
I sent e-mails to Marty's house, but I am not sure he read them. He has never replied me and won't, that I know. Coward as men can be in such situations.
It is rude though not letting me know if he had got the parcels I sent months ago.
Worse, I need my hours in his company, but it will be hard listening to him without saying anything.
I will have to be patient, I guess. Wait and see !